I'm usually isolated while I work on art. And I work a lot. The longer it takes, the more the isolation gets to me in so many different ways and I do sink into a little depression.
I think loneliness is my curse.
It's something I refuse to accept though, and I have been and will continue to be working on fixing it, one aspect at a time. I did try telling people but they said that something was mentally wrong with me yet didn't offer any solutions so once again I had to figure it out by myself. Now I'm in a place I love, studying a course I feel at home with, I have many people supporting me, I am surrounded by new friends and people who are also creative and I've managed to make some of my dreams come true! So life is very good! I still, however, have more issues that need dealing with, but these do take a few years and I'm prepared and am patiently working towards that. It's a slow onwards and upwards, but I'm going onwards and upwards nevertheless!
This picture is me when I was ... about 14 I guess. I'm not entirely sure what my exact reasons were, but from the age of 10 I was really interested in black, wearing black, and drawing people wearing black, and things that faintly resembled punk (didn't know it was a fashion at all, I was just making it up). I can't imagine that it was Discworld leading me to that, or my obsession with animals at the time ... but still, I did develop a certain habit which really amuses my room mates ._. It was up until the age of fifteen that I was terrified of showing my art to my parents. I was convinced that they would disapprove so I actually felt very ashamed of my skills. I was fine with showing other people but not my parents. One day though I was forced to show them my stuff and the reaction wasn't as bad as I predicted, and now they fully support me in whatever I do :> People shouldn't be suppressed from doing what they can do best. If they live their lives to please the standards of others then it's not their lives that they're living XC and that's an awful waste of a life that is yours and yours alone.
When I was really little I used to love The Hobbit and Lord of the Rings (my dad read them out for my bedtime stories), and something that stuck out for me was Bilbo Baggins quoting his father with "While there's life there's hope". That's something I've held onto ever since.
I am still very much alive, and thanks to all of you who support me, and all of my close friends, and all of the dreams I'm determined to achieve, I very much have hope :> Loneliness is a curse that will one day be lifted!